I lie to my parents because no matter what I do or say or whether I’m honest they won’t believe me! They are f*cking traditional and they assume the worst of me!  They act like I go out late nights, sleep around with guys and smoke and drink!! Sure I go out late at nights sometimes, that’s because I hate being home and hearing you guys nag!  All I ever do is work and go to school!  I’d like to enjoy myself still as a teen for once!! But I can’t even do that without you guys assuming the worst of me!!!  How the hell are you going to tell me to stay home on days I don’t work!! When no ones ever home!  All I do is work!! Why can’t I enjoy my days off! I’m only f*cking 18 so let me be 18!!  I don’t even do anything bad!! I don’t go out partying and drinking, I don’t go clubbing! I don’t do any of the shit you assume!!  You guys never take the time to hear me all you guys have wrapped in your stupid little minds is that I’m a horrible daughter!!  I help around the house, I clean up every damn morning and look after my baby sister before I even go to work!!  Saying that why can’t I be like so and so’s daughter and shit!! Well did it ever occur to you guys that maybe so and so’s daughter is worse than me going out drinking, partying and oh did I mention she doesn’t have a f*cking job! So before you compare me to someone else’s daughter why don’t you really get to know their daughter first.  For god’s sake I’m only 18!!! I don’t want to get married so stop it!!! Why the hell are you trying to get rid of me and tell me to get married!! This is why when ever I am home and when my dad’s home I’m in my room or I try to never be home when you guys are home!  All you ever do is bring up marriage and how I need to be a better daughter!!  Yeah I get sometimes I may not come home till midnight but I’m not even doing anything bad except going to my cousins house to talk or hanging out with friends the little time I have to do so.  How the hell am I a bad daughter!  You guys just assume I’m bad! Oh cause I have my ears pierced more than once, I’m bad!  Oh because I hang out with my cousin on the weekends I’m bad!  Oh because I’ve been seeing someone for the past year and spend time occasionally with him I’m bad and that people look at my badly cause I can stay in a fucking committed relationship for over a year!! How the fuck are you going to say OG’s look at me badly because I’ve been with Diamond for a year now!?
Atleast I’m not going around with many guys and dating many guys for short periods of time!!  I honestly don’t know what to do anymore!  I want to move out of the house asap! But I know that’s not realistic !?  Wtf am I supposed to do get married! I’m only 18, I don’t want to get married and I know if this all keeps up I won’t survive this summer in this house.

Best thing?

He said I was the best thing that ever happened to him..

Sadly he’s the worst thing and best thing that’s ever happened to me..